I read something the other day about how we can tell the difference between whether an idea comes from our own mind or if it is an idea that God has put into our mind. The article said if the idea is something that we wouldn't normally consider, it is most likely something God is calling us to do.
That is exactly how I feel about this blog. It is something I absolutley did not want to do, but for some reason, the idea of starting one kept coming to my mind. I truly feel God knew that I needed this outlet. Whether anyone is reading it or not, it is something that I needed to do for myself. It has helped me focus my days and take something positive away from each day that I am given.
We used to sing Psalm 51 in church. It says, "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me." I feel this is exactly what God is doing in me right now. I have so much in my heart that is negative, and God is trying to clean it up. Christians are supposed to look different than the rest of the world. I feel as though there has been a big discrepancy between what I believe and the way I act during my day. I have not looked different because I have not truly relied on God to help me. I see that he is helping me let go of dependency on others, discontent, taking others for granted and a bad attitude. I want the thoughts that I write to correspond with my actions, words, and attitude. I want a clean heart that only God can provide.
Favorite Moments
Gracie has started calling Jim "Jim" and "honey" instead of Daddy.
Watching the rain clouds roll in from Gracie's window. Madelyn was standing on her tip-toes trying to see.
Trying to capture a picture in my mind of exactly how small Madelyn is right now while I fed her a bottle
Lunch with friends
Dancing after nap time
Talking with Jim in bed before we went to sleep and reminding him of how I love the way he makes our family time together so much fun. I love him for the funny person he is and the way he keeps me grounded.